Shaayad Baayad kari kard...

Khaste shodam az sedaaye dokhtare hamsaaye ke harrooz saate 4 shoroo be seda kardane pirezani 70 sale mikonad ke madarbozorgash nist...
Khaste shodam az konjkavie negaahaaye gharibe, az negaahe vahshie mardani ke shayaad doktari hamseno sale man dar khane darand...
Khaste shodam az moghaayeseye peydarpey, baraaye shenaakhtane sefidi az siyahi...
Khaste shodam az afkaare bi mored ke mazeye marge zaman midahand...
Khaste shodam az shenidan, shenidane kalamaati ke shaayad cho feleshi dar masiram say be taghirash darand...
Khaste shodam az didan, didane harooze tooye ayene va gool zadane hatta khodam ba in neghaab...
Khaste shodam az booye gande doroogho tanafaro riakari, booye baatlaaghi ke harrooz dar an dasto pa mizanim...
Khaste shodam az goftane in hame degh ke harooz yek tami midahad, emrooz tame sher, farda shaayad tame ashk, roozi tame rango tablo...
Khaste shodam bas ke khod ra be nafahmi, kuri, kari va laali zadam...

Shaayad baayad raveshe ravaane in lahzeha ra taghir dad...
Shayad be ghole sohrab "jure digar baayad did"...

Ya na
Shaayad baayad bejaye goftan, negah kard
bejaye ghese goftan, negahi be dor o bare khod biandazim, be donya va zendanbaan haayash...
Baayad shaayad bejaye didan, lams kard
bejaye zendanbaan boodan, khod ra jeye zendani gozasht, zakhm hayash ra lams kard...
Shayaad baayad bejaye lams kardan, maze kard
bejaye zendanie zakhmie in donya boodan, ESHGH ra, OMID ra, AZADI ra maze kard.

Kaghazhaye sookhte

shab bood, sedai ashena ke az an jabeye jadooi biroon miamad....
va afkaram shoroo be ghadam zadan dar maghzam karadan.
Baba age alan in ra mishenid migoft:
"maghz? khodoom maghz?"



Delam baraye kaghazhaye zobaleh misoozad.
Ruzi shayad ghalami khaste be ruyeshan minevesht,
shayad ham koodaki kelas avali ba zogh horoofe alefbaayash ra khat khati mikard,
shayad naaomidi naameye eltemaas be Khoda minevesht,
ya shayad negaah ashghi dar sefidiye khaalesaaneash ghargh mishod.

Hal ou enghadr biarzesh ast ke vaghti khorshid zaaher mishavad va aghrabehaye saat adade 7 ra neshan dahad, Mashini ghool paykar khabe khooche ra mishekanad va dastaani chorookin ou ra be ghabrestan mibarad ta besoozad.

Ou ra be door andakhtand, ou ra az amasaale khodash door kardand. Ou shekast va biarzesho tohinamiz majboor be raftanash kardand.
Ou az hale khod va ghiafeash be sharm miaamad va roozi hezaar baar arezooye marg mikard.
shayad ham be gozashte miandishid va az in sarnevesht zaar zaar gerye mikard.

Hese ajibist hese be door andakhte shodan.
Motmaenam kaghaz in sarnevesht ra arezoo nemikard.
Vali shayad be in minaazad ke saaket naneshast
khod ra fadaaye ghalam
va fekro andisheye man kard
ta sedaayam be gooshe jahan beresad.
Va hal to be man, be neveshtehaayam
va kaaghaze sookhte fekr mikoni.......

jome shab hodoode saate 20:45

khaksepari

alan 2 ruz migzare.....

Foroodgah...khodahafezi....

ajib bood.

Diana baraye 1 sal be alman oomade bood, tuye in 1 sal jaye bozorgi ro tooye ghalbe man eshghal kard. Va hala....

Ki bood gofte bood "zendegi amado rafte adamast"?

mahe pish doosti aziz (moharamalikhan) ra dobare payda kardam va hala 48 saat mishavad ke doosti aziz ra az dast dadam.

az 10 saat ghablesh ke oun chamedoonesho mibast va man barayash name mineveshtam, dotaie gerye mikardim. Engar ou ham ham fekrhaye man ro mikhoond. Ehsas mikardam akharin lahazatist ke mitavanam ou ra dar aghoosh begiram va negayash konam....shayad ham be lahjeye jalebash bekhandam, akhar ou az kolombia amade bood va hal bayad be khoone bar migasht. Diana migoft khaneye ou, doostanash, arezoohayash inja hastand.... be koja beravad? Tars az farda ra dar cheshmhayash mididam va in ghame khak separi.

Engar oo ham midanest ke ma doostiyeman ra be ghabrestan mibarim... ba dasthaye khodeman be khak miseparim. Har saniye yek zarbe chaghoo be in doosti bood a in saniye ha ajab ajale dashtand.

va an lahze resid ke ou dar safe mosaferan istad...har chand lahzei dobare be aghab bar migasht va man ra negah mikard. negahe ou hamchon navari man ra, karhayam ra zabt mikard ta shayad jomlehaie dar daftare khaterate ou neveshte shavad.

Har ghadami ke ou be jolo bar midasht....khaki bood ke man ba dasthaye khodam rooye jasade bijan doosti dar ghabr mirikhtam.

emrooz vali......omidavaram va khoshbin. Agar ou javabe mail hayam ra nadahad, ba man tamas nagirad.... man digar ou ra nabinam, midanam ke Diana dokhtari bood kolumbiaie ke 1 sal hamrahe man, ham dame man, va dooste man bood va man chizhaye ziadi az ou amukhtam.

Va Diana bayad mibood ta man in basham ke hastam.

Tapeshe Saniyeha

Sedaye gham miad
Booye vahshat.

Omid galooyam ra mifeshaarad....va in hese khafegi...
Man ou ra be in kar majboor mikonam.

Nane ghose, poshte dar mikubad
Va man poshte iman ghayem mishavam.

Khale Baad, Amu Abr ra ba kulebari az ashkhaye man be diari door mifrestad
ta shayad derakhte khoshgidei sirab shavad.

Ghanaari dar ghafase sokoot Avaze Azadi mikhanad
Radobarghi pardeye siyahe shab ra pare mikonad
Va Setareha be daamane man panaah miavarand.

Sahel khorshid khanoom ra miboosad
Va mouj az shadi bala va paeen miparad.

Teerhaye garma, gozashteye yakhzadeh ra az zire nakhonhayam ab mikonad va pak mishavad.
Rag haye vojoodam Sharaabi taze be ghalbam miresaanad.

Angoshtaanam, dast hayam, jan migirand, javane mizanand, mirooyand....
Khak ra be kenar mizanand va noor ra miboosand.

Dasthayam hamcho giyahi sabz mirooyand
Va aseman ra dar aghush migirand.

khale Sooske
22:19