vai zendegi

zendegi cheshm hayat kush ke bebini?
zendegi gush hayat kush ke beshnavi?
zendegi rag hayat kush, ke khun jaryan payda konad?
zendegi ghalbat kojast?
vai zendegi .... vai
nadidi zendegi cheshm haye por ashke kudaki ba dampaie haye pelastiki...
nashenidi zendegi sedaye jigho gerye hamrah ba ahange toopo tofango goloole...
hes nakardi zendegi daghie deghi ke be sineye madarha neshast....
vai zendegi rag nadari ke khuni be ghalbet berese...
vai zendegi...vai... ke to hata zaban nadari ke az khodet defa koni...
vai zendegi... vai
age mididi, age yek lahze mishenidi, age ba pusto ostokhanat hes mikardi ... khode to be saatha dasture "eest" midadi...
vai zendegi...

نقاب neghab 1

chera ma adama injurim?
chera baray paeen avordan gonah khodemun, gonah digaran ro bozorg mikonim, ta gonahe khodemun dide nashe? "diruz Parvaneh dokhtare Shirin khanum ro didam, nemiduni ba ye pesar ikbiri o bedard nakhor, dast tu daste ham tu park ghadam mizadan!" ghaafel az inke hamun moghe dokhtar khodeshun tu ye Cafeenet ba dust pesaresh begu bekhandi dashte.
Ya baray bozorg kardane khodemun, digaran ro mikubin. ya khode man tu sherkat, barha sheode ke az khodam khejalat keshidam chon khodamo baalaa tar az mostakhdeme sherkat mididam. Chand bar tahala hamkelasito, hamkareto pishe ostadet ya raiset kubidi ta khodet ro bala bekeshi.

ya kamelan barax lebase pushide mipushim chon mardom chi migan age bebinan....vai ya lebase baz mipooshim...vagarna mardom fekr mikonan omolam. Ya in reshtaro nakhun chon mardom fekr mikonan hushet kame.... felan chiz ro bokhor chon hamsayamoon....

in karo bokon ke fekr konan.... felan ja naro felan kas mibinantet...

felani ro didi, khastegaaresh mohandes bud... bagh dasht...khune asht....mashinesho didi

hamash be rokh ham keshide mishim, hamash moghaayese, hamash....
chand darsad az kar haai ke anjam midim bekhatere harf mardome?

Chra, vaghan chera bejaye inke kambud haiyi ke dar vojudemun hast bebinim, say mikonim anharo laa be laay tarz zendegi kardan baghie ghayem konim?

divaarha bekhater rotubat ziad kapak mizanan, hala agar ruye in divarha hey rang bemaalim, kapak ha baraye modati dide nemishavand vali dobare biroon mizann, in divaar haaro bayad kharab kard va az no saakht. Kare asani nist vali raahe digari ham vojood nadarad. Bejaye inke enghadr be baghie negah konim behtar ast in neghaab ro az suratemun bardaarim, moghabel ayene be istim va be khodemun negah konim.
Man kiam? To ki? daghigh be cheshmat negah kon! Omghe darunet ro khahi did! behet ghol midam ke bahat harf mizane.

donyaye kuchik

ajab....
hafteye pish be in moghe maman azam porsid..."chete....delet gerefte?" goftam "are, nemidunam chera!!!!" midunestam....man midunestam chera delam gerefte....delam az tanhaie gerefte bud....dustani ke fekr mikardam payda kardam ruz be ruz raheshun az man joda mishod va har ruz yek khodahafezie no. Ensanhaie ke raheshun, dideshun, maghsadeshun shabihe man bud....va man omide ziadi be ayandeie shayad moshtarak dashtam...vali ....
az daste khoda gele dashtam.... pishesh gerye kardam.....
va un ham sedamo shenid...

bavar kardani nist.... dusti ke zamani dustam bude ke man vaghan behesh ehtiaj dashtam.....ruzha va shabha .... modate 11 sal duste man mande va be yadam bude... va hala ke dobare ehsase ...... ajibe...
Baba haruz zang mizane va miporse "az duste jadidet khabari nist?" Vai khodaya .... dige hich kalameyi nist ke liaghate goftan dashte bashe....
Moharamalikhan fekr kone man mordam va in khabar man ro baraye un tu khialesh zende negah dare va bad khabare zende mundanam maro ba kilometraha fasele dobare beham beresoone.
faghat az khodam miporsam chera.... chera hame chiz..... tamame gozashte az khateratam pak shode va man az u vaghat yek dust dar lebase khargoosh yadame ke dar vasate sen neshaste va ba cheshmhaie negaran be man ke naghshe kalaghe ghar ghariro bazi mikardam va be dorash micharkhidam negah mikard va man senariomo faramush karde budam.

Cheghadr zendegieman shabihe theatr ast, va ma mijangim ke naghsheman ra khub bazi konim. Honarpisheha miayand va miravand... honarpishehaye jadid miayand va ma miraghsim va mijangim. Ruzi man khalagh budam ba hala khale Sooske, ruzi moharamalikhan Khargoosh bud va hala....

khodaya farda chi.... che naghshi farda shoghle man ast..... begu ta khod ra amade konam.....
man tasmim gereftam honarpisheye khubi basham chon mikhaham khodam basham

azat mamnoonam Moharamalikhan.... hamun khargooshe khodam

gharibi darde bi darman.....

dirooz maman mikhast ba amme telefoni sohbat kone....yani shabe ghablesh ke mishe jome shab koli zang zadim kasi gushro var nemidasht....jome sobham ke dige hichi dige....
hamun jome shab mobile dokhtar amamo gereftim...."alo salam khaleeeeeeeeeee ... chetorin... maman khalast..... khale sooske chetore... khale khubin? daie khube?"
badesh gushi yedafe raft daste yeki dige az bacheha "eee .... chetorin ... khubiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin?".... kholase in gushi daste hame bacheha gashto hame yeseri maskhare bazi dar avordano belakhare daste amme resid....
maman cheshash bargh mizad, yadesh rafte bud ke mobilo gerefteo koli pulesh mishe....kholase dige koli khandidano maman goft farda behetun khune zang mizanam.
Jome sobh maman mese ye bachei ke delesh mikhad hadeaghal say kone ....hata baraye ye lahze...jaye digei bashe in telefono vel nemikard. har do daghighe zang mizad badesh ye "ah ina ke hanuz nayumadan" migofto .... shekast khorde telefono sare jash mizasht.
Engar ke har dafe barghe cheshesh khamush mishod moghei ke telefono ghat mikhard va sedaye duuuuuuuud...... duuuuuuuuuuuud.... duuuuuuuuuuuuud dige nemiyumad.
delam tike tike mishod vaghti in talashe mamano baraye ertebate chand lahzei be shayad gozashte... shayad bachegi.... shayad khune.... shayad vatan.... shayad ham nafas... ham seda... ham saye...... midididam va in shekast, shekaste man bud engar man ye sarbaze zakhmie hame chiz bakhte budam ke say mikardam hatta yek lahze khosh bin basham.
ghamo ghoseo tanhaie khodam yadam miraft... inke dustaye almanie 1 saleye manam vaghteshune ke be khunehashun bagardano, tarikhe dustishun ba man dige gozashte. yadam miraft ke che ghadr delam mikhast ghatie bachehaye iran budamo badaz zohra abhavij bastani bokhoramo, sinama beramo sandevije kalbas ba khiarshuro goje bokhoram, yadam miraft ke nemidunestam vakse kafsh o kafashi che bui dare, ya zohra ke baraye nahar khune miri buye ghorme zabzio, ghayme az har khune biroon miumad. yadam miraft ke che khayfi dare tabestun bad az kashko bademjune nahar zire kuler bekhabio televesionam poshte saret ghz ghz kone, yadam rafte che hali dare vaghti saate 4 bidaret mikonan sari roupusheto mipushio, ye arayeshio, badesham ba baro bach tu khiabuna.....in shuloughi in zende budam... in....
are....dige dare yadam mire.... manam mesle maman say mikonam irano, adamasho tu khatereham... tu fekram tu ghalbam zende negah daram... va in royaro ba telefonao, sar zadanaye 2 - 3 hafteie be vagheiat tabdil konam.
Iran harchi ke mikhad bashe.... vali hadeaghal bad az zohr ke az khune biroon miaio sholoughie khiabuno mibini hese zende budan behet dast mide.....
adamash harchi doroughgu, ria kar, hasood, cheshmo ham cheshm ke mikhan bashan,... vali hadeaghal vaghti ye moshkeli dari ye chand nafar hastan ke hazeran az khodeshun baraye chand lahze be khatere to begzaran.
midunam... shayad toam jozve un adamaie hasti ke migi "divoone... midooni chandta adam hast ke arezooye mogheiate toro daran?"....
moteasefane bayad behet hagh bedam... manam age boodam hamino migotam. Vali in hese tanhaie.... az daste in tanhaie
vaghti filmaye eyd ya christmasemuno mibinam yade Mr Bean mioftam ke tanhaie christmas migereft, be khodesh name midad, kado tu jurabesh mizasht.... va che sade, del be in khoshi seporde budo, say mikard razi beshe. maman ham harsal baraye eyd hesabi kharid mikone, ajilo... shirinio... mivehaye mokhtalef.... va man midunam ke har kodoomemun midunim ke emsalam mese salaye dige hamsho khodemun 4tai mikhorimo be ruye khodemunam nemiarim ke midunim. delam baraye khodam nemisuze.... chon mano ghoncham (khaharam) bazam dustaie darim ke miano miran vali khob ye marhame kutahi baraye ye modate mahdudi hastan.
Vali maman chi? Baba chi... ruz be ruz mibinam ke yek chorooke dige be chorooke zire cheshmeshun ezafe shode. va yek khastegie no be shunehashun. Del khoshie una chie? una ke hame chizo bakhtan bekhatere mano ghonche.... pas una chi? una sareshuno ru shuneye ki mizaran gerye mikonan? una darde deleshuno be ki migan? ki daste unaro migire aghti del shekastan? Una khuneye ki beran vaghtbaham ghahran?
delam mikhast in ghodrato dashtam irano miovordam too alman.... ya na asan ba alman miumadam tu iran.... bazam ye arezoo mese hameye arezoohaye dige
na.... man adame etefaghan khoshbiniam.... age mibini delam gerefte ya del tangam vaghat be khatere ine ke maman dobare ba iran tamas gerefte va shenidam ke bachehaye famil ye 2 - 3 ruzi baham esfehan boodan. Khob sarneveshto nemishe taghir dad vali mesle Mr Bean mishe jure digei didesh.....

Eshghe Abadi

Az man miporsi Asheghi?
Man migam na
Cheraghe roshane cheshm hayat khamush mishavad
Va ashke vojudat tekei az man ra mishekanad
Sarma khod ra be badane ma mimalad
Va larzesh vojudeman ra migirad
Man migam eshgh nadaram vali chizi behtar az eshgh
To khamush mimani
Man Tanhaie lahzehaye tora mibinam
Man ghame tarakkhordeye kuzeye arezuhayat ra mibinam
Man sarmaie ke dar ghalbat atische omidat ra khamush karde mibinam
Man sokute ghanariye khoshsedaye imanat ra mishenavam
Man tarikie shabhaye kavir ra dar vojudat mibiniam
Man mordane lahze lahzeye tekehaye vojudat ra ehsas mikonam
To vali
Vaghat yek jesm, yek ruh, yek arezura mibini
Cheshmhaye tarikat nure atische daghe eshgham ra nemibinad
Midanam daste to nist
In sarnevesht ast ke daste tora be milehaye zendane in donya baste ast

Midani man baraye che amadeam?
Nayamadeam ta ba vojudat yeki shavam
Nayamedam ta ayande ra ba to taghsim konam
Nayamadeam ta garmaye vojudat ra hes konam
Amade am ta tanhaiat ra ba khandehayam por konam
Amade am ta be tarake arezuhayat ra ba eshgh bakhie bezanam
Amade am ta ba garmaye atischi ke dar ghalbam misuzad cheraghe omaidat ra roshan konam
Amade am ta zendigi ra be lahze lahzeye vojudat bebakhsham
Amade am ta ba kelide vagheiat dasthaye basteye to ra az in donya baz konam
Man eshgh nadaram,
vali chizi behtar az eshgh
Eshgeh abadi

khale Sooske
6.juli.07 10:27

tanfaor

Az khodam badam miad,
halam az khodam beham mikhore
akhe dige injuri?
Az unam badam miad
Az unam halam beham mikhore
Vali uno bayad dust dashte basham
Chera? Chon doshmaname
Khodamo chi?
Na khodamo nemitunam dust dashte basham
Delam mikhad nabasham
Asan nabudam
Hese ajibi
Fekresho bokon
NABUDAN
Halate tahavo daram
Delam mikhad khodamo bala biaram
Ajibe
Delam mikhad nare bezanam
Ye chizi az dakhel mikhad param kone
Bad birun biad
Mano tu dastash begire
Feshar bede moghey ke dandunasho ru ham feshar mide va zedaye ghiz ghize dandunash be gusham mirese
Bad mano zire pahash benaze, lagatmalam kone
Dobare var am dare
Param kone
Rize rize
Juri ke dastash mogheye pare karanam az zure feshar belarze
Bad panjeraro va kone
Bad biad
mano be bad bede
vai che hese ghashangi
khial mikonam arum shodam

khale Sooske m.m
baraye khodam
am 13.Juli.07
um 14:02